Summer Fun, and an update.

This summer wasn't as full of fun stuff as I would have liked for the boys. I look back on it, and it was pretty boring. The highlights were Holiday World (an amusement park up in Santa Claus, Indiana), going to the swimming pool twice, going to the J'Town Community Fair and going to the KY State Fair
Holiday World was fun, but HOT! It was 105 degrees outside, so we stayed at the water park. It was just Aidan and I. He loved getting to spend time with me without Li, or Daddy. We went up with our friend, Missi and her little guy, Dillon. He enjoyed spending time in the water.
The J'Town community Fair was just a small carnival type thing in a church parking lot. Aidan liked the bouncies..but that was about all he did.
The KY State Fair, he loved. We saw Newsboys and Sanctus Real in concert that night, so his day was complete. He didn't get to ride any rides, but he loved it none the less. He enjoyed the TARC bus, and getting to go through the giant blow up heart. We enjoyed time as a family.
On another note, I want to say I am truly amazed at how wonderful and loving our God is. If you've been reading...our choir was invited to sing with MWS in NYC. Well, God has been providing the money through so many wonderful donations and some fundraising efforts. It is amazing how God provides, when it is His will. Thank you.

Aidan excited about the fair :) and Liam

Aidan and the "Boy Fairbear"

Liam ready to run.

I promise, I will post pics soon. My phone is my only internet connection and my phone posts pics sideways. :-/ So, anyway. Thanks for reading.
God Bless.

Blessings

I am blessed. I truly am. I am a child of God. I am a wife to a husband who loves me, and treats me with respect. A mother to two boys who are just wonderful and brilliant. I attend a wonderful church, and though we've been attending SECC for about a year now, we're finally meeting new friends.

My trip to NYC is God's will, or seems to be. Two wonderful couples in our Weekend Couple's Group provided a large chunk of the first payment. My sister and I received a large cake order and that will fund $200 of it. I have started a new hair bow business, called "Bows and Such by Amy"....and I have a $350 order placed for October. That will help fund the second payment, I believe.

I am currently praying for a vehicle. My husband has to take any and all work he can get, so we have to sacrifice alot, including grocery trips, doctors appts and such. I know God is wonderful and will provide as His plan is. But...aside from that...well, I am just praying. I promise I will start adding pictures soon...They just always come out sideways on here if I upload them by my phone. However, I will have internet soon, as I start online classes tomorrow.

I feel blessed.

In His Love,
Amy

Life as I know it.

It has became quite obvious to me here in the past week or so, that the people I thought were friends...well, they aren't. I am heart broken, but there's not much that can fix it. I am who I am. I am a God loving woman, a wife, a mother...and if you don't love me for me, then I guess it's goodbye time. I have had five people I let myself get close to. Each and everyone of them have found another paths. I know it's God's way...but it still hurts.

My "sister" was the one I thought I'd grow old with. She is the only person that I'd share almost everything with. She recently decided that her path was taking her in a dramatically different area. I am not sure that we can find a medium ground now. I mean, she's my partner with our business...but I guess maybe we aren't supposed to be in business together. I seriously miss her companionship. I used to be able to text her and talk when I needed to, and vice versa. Now, I am lucky to get 5 sentences out of her. She's working now, and has a family...I understand that. I just don't matter anymore. Ok. I'll just move on.

But don't expect me to get close to anyone again. I'm over it.

Me? Stressed? No...Ha!

This month...well, it has been down right crazy. Brian is trying to work, the boys birthdays are back to back, I have to come up with my $150 deposit by July 21st and so, with 5 days left, I have $29. Yeah.

This past weekend, I decided with the help of my friend, Tori, that I would host a yard/bake sale. Literally one day planning, and I made $29. She makes hair bows, and taught me how to do it. My problem is I don't have a glue gun. So...I am unable to make more. Then again, I am not selling the ones I made Saturday anyway. However, Tori and I caught up, our kids played...and the much needed rain we'd been begging for, finally came and rained us out. So, now I am back at square one.

The eagerness to go on this trip is so much, and I don't feel as though God is telling me now....but it is like taking over my life. I can't stop thinking about it. Constantly wondering what else I can try. I have to raise $150 by July 21st, and 50% of the amount due (about $600) by August. That's a lot of hair bows, that I am not even able to sell. I am...honestly beginning to feel beat. If it's God's will, then I suppose it will happen. But it sure is tiring.

Oh yes. So, I got my financial aid reward letter. I am excited. Eligible for a PELL and a CAP grant. Woohoo! Awesomeness. Down side, is registration is this week. Yikes! So, Brian has to take me downtown to register...I think. I have changed (yet again) my major. I need something...generic. the medical field is flooded and jobs are impossible. So, business management it is. HR management is what I am going for.

The boys birthday party is Saturday. Hoping for the best.

What was I thinking?

I was beaten. Satan got me, and I am not proud of it. I gave up almost too easily on my NYC trip. Well, thanks to my amazing cousin, I was uplifted and encouraged to continue trying. The Lord gave us an amazing opportunity, and I feel as though this is a test, and I am being tested to put my faith in Him and for Him to provide.

So, even with the fact that our forecast is nothing but rain, I'm planning to have a bake/yard sale. I am out of cupcake cups, so I have to find a way to the grocery store. But today I will be baking a couple/few dozen cupcakes. Chocolate and vanilla. My normal buttercream frosting. I need to earn $150. The real fun part is trying to figure out how to get there. Having no car is kind of making this hard, but I suppose if I have to walk to Walmart (which is about 2 miles away), then I will. Just gotta pray it won't rain.

I look at this and giggle. All this for $150. Really?! Oye..the things we do.

Acceptance

I am trying so hard to accept everything that happens to me as God's will. He has a plan, and I just can't see it. I am downright angry, upset and disappointed right now because I guess my determination has been smacked with reality. My feeble attempt at fundraising for NYC is just that. Feeble. The reality is that I can't go, and it bothers me that people judge the whole situation. It hurts like crazy, because I know I won't get another opportunity to do this but it's out of my hands.

Still jobless, still miserable...add losing my best friend because he is on cloud nine and falling in love and I was too much of a downer for him. Idc how childish it was, losing your best friend, especially three over a lifetime hurts like hell. I honestly have to believe that just maybe I have strayed or something. I don't understand. I am blessed to have a roof over my family's head, food in our stomachs and such...but I can't help but hurt because I sacrifice so much and I get nothing (I know, Oh woe is me). If you don't like the tone, then I am sorry. Get over it. I am working on acceptance.

The end.

Amy

It's Up to God.

I have finally heard from our choir director that any fundraising efforts are our individual responsibility. With that said....I have two ideas that I am planning on doing. First, I am going to host a bake sale and raffle. I have also found a website that helps recieve donations made by friends and family. The website is: www.gofundme.com/nyc-choir-trip.

I kindly ask that if you are able to do so, that you would kindly make a donation to my trip fund. This is a once in a lifetime opportunity and I am beyond excited that God has chosen us (and me!) for this spectacular experience. It IS up to God, and I know this.