Emotional overload

I will forewarn you, my scarce amount of readers, that I am an emotional wreck. Why? I honestly have no clue. Life has been difficult lately {isn't it always?}, but the prospective that I have taken from two different situations and put them together has seriously just blown my mind. Hormonal imbalance probably plays into it as well, but oh well.

I am a Christian. You probably know that. I do not hide it. I am not the best at living the way my God has intended for me, but God help me, I am trying. I have discussed in a previous post, that my friend Three nearly lost her life due to pregnancy complications. She ran our city, and two surrounding cities OUT of blood. The beautiful thing about this is, she LIVED. God's healing hand was on her the entire time. He was in control. That just blows my mind, fills me with joy...I don't even know what else to say about it.

So, these past 3-4 weeks, a guy whom I have known for at least 15 years, has been going through some serious pain himself. I won't name names, or explain the situation for his privacy...but I will say this. I have encouraged him to read the Bible, the book of John to be exact and prayed for him. What never dawned on me, is that he has never heard the Gospel. He knows Jesus died for him on a cross, but that's it. I totally missed the point here, and now I am trying to figure out if I truly get it.

My heavenly Father loves me. He loves US. He wants US. He holds our lives, our world, in His mighty hands. HE is in control...and He wants whats best for us..Jeremiah 29:11-13 says, "11For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. 12Then you will call on me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you. 13You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart." 
Why are we walking away from Him? Why do we question His authority and try so desperately to do something on our own, only to fail? 

To be continued...